Day #2
What Does Recovery Mean to You?
For me the word recovery means so much more than a scale telling me I have reached that magical 18.5. Personally, my recovery is a rather multi-faceted struggle. I have so many goals and ambitions that are only feasible if I beat the demon within, which is why I have decided to list all my goals for the coming year. So here, this is what recovery means to me:
• Fitting back into my heaps of adorable clothes that have piled up on my wardrobe floor, too saggy or big to fit my emaciated frame.
• When I can start feeling something other than hunger & distress. When I can care about things like friends, family & experiences rather than meals, nutrition and avoidance.
• When I can say yes to an invitation without worrying about what food will be present, if I should go and how I can possibly get out of it.
When I can eat something that I don’t know the calorie count of & enjoying it all the same.
•When my once lovely, thick hair comes back.
• When I get my period back.
When the sight of dessert excites, rather than frightens me.
When I can enjoy a salad or a run on a bright springtime morning without feeling guilty for ‘impeding’ my recovery.
I suppose this list could go on and on but I’ll keep it brief for you – the reader’s – sake. Just know, that deep down I have a long, long list of reasons why I wish to recover. They range from physical to emotional to personal but at their core, they all contain some sort of recovery process.
Wish me luck as I continue.
R
P.S. I’m upping my calories once more. :/
A Natural Sort of Lovely 
I love the idea of this writing challenge… its a great way for you to keep track of your progress and also to help others understand some of the things you are going through… it has really helped me to know that i am not alone in feeling some of these things! maybe you should open it up to your readers to do a comparison challenge, so we can use it to push ourselves in our own recovery? :-)
Good luck with this and i look forwards to finding out more in the upcoming days!
x
I really like this 30 day writing challenge. Those are all excellent reasons and I really enjoyed reading it!
Good luck xx