Hello Lovely Followers,
I apologize profusely for not attempting to update this sooner but I honestly have been extremely busy. Extremely busy living life, that is. It is for this reason that I have decided to stop devoting so much time wallowing in the past (i.e. updating this blog.) However, I have decided I want to keep this up to help everyone who is struggling as best I can.
Recovery is undoubtedly the best decision I ever made. That sort of quasi–recovery / maintaining a low weight thing was ridiculous and life unbridled and free is worth every single stomach-ache, bloated feeling, mini-freak out, acne mark, etc.
From start to finish I have gained 28 pounds and you know what, I still fit in the same jeans I always wore. How’s that for unexpected? Never did I ever think I could maintain on so much, do so much, or love my body so much with an extra 28 pounds. When I tell people the amount I’ve gained they simply don’t believe me.
Sure, I don’t love the way my thighs look but you know what, those thighs allowed me to climb up the rocky mountains with my brother this weekend despite a bum ankle and carrying a heavy pack. My 82 pound frame never could have done that!
I’m happier with a body that may not be the epitome of perfection so long as it allows me to do what I love. There’s a reason marathoners actually gain weight, weight means muscle and muscle means strength to make it through life and complete fun activities.
Anyway, for those who are just coming to my blog I figured I would do a short recap of what my journey has been like so far.
Beginning few months: Start weight, 82 pounds. I upped from my lowest of 800 a day to 2,000 (exactly, every single day!) and gained up to about 90 and maintained this for more than a year.
Jan 1, 2012 – February: After an emotional trip home from college, I decided to try an incorporate weight training into my day and up the calories to 2200-2500 range. I gained up to about 95 and once more plateaued.
March: I game across gwenythowlyn.com and decided I needed to up to 3,000 at least. Well this lasted a few days before I gave in and started what she refers to as ‘reactive eating.’ I consumed ~7,000 a day (sometimes up to 10,000) for about 3 weeks and gained up to 108. (This is an estimate as my weight would fluctuate by upwards of 15 pounds a day!)
April: Continued eating around 4,000 a day and went up to about 110 where I have stayed ever since…
May: I now maintain around 110 on about 3,000 a day. Again, this is an estimate as several days I still go over this quite a bit. Take this past week for example. I think my lowest day was 4,000 and highest around 7,000. I got on the scale again today and guess what, still 109. It just doesn’t want to budge and I still feel hungry all the time. I just go with it and have learned not to sweat it too much.
What to Expect
• Severe fluctuations in weight (just 2 weeks ago I ballooned up to 125 for 3 days from eating so much but after a few days I dropped back to 108)
• Hunger ALL THE TIME. Here’s my advice: Just Eat It! Eat a lot, your body will thank you.
• Stomach aches, bowel problems, gas, etc.
• Weight Stabilization (If your body trusts you it will stop gaining. The worst thing you can do it try and go about it with half-ass motivation)
Alright everyone, finals are coming up next week so I will not be able to update very often but I would like to make this blog more into a Q&A type thing. If you have any questions or anything like that, do not hesitate. However, just know that for a little while I may be unavailable.
I send my love to all those who are struggling and I truly urge you, Just Do It!